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[11 Jul 2006|01:03am] |
so i was reading all my old entries and remembering all those memoires was a crazy experience... man i think i really need to start writing again just so i can have something to look back on...so well
yesterday was awwwesome. seriously. i went to the lake and met ellie and and morgan there..we played in the sand and went on the swings.. then we went to get some ice cream with joel and morgan's sister and her husband. it was nice. joel is weird. and so is mike. i don't want to hold his hand. weeeeird. hahah. thennn minigold = punkrock. elephants are nice. i am a excellent golfer. i also am an expert jackpot hitter. but then errors occur. damn. thenn i got a ninja sword.. oh ps. PEEENISSS. ahahah. thennnn late night swimming. with death beetals and frogs and ..mating frogs. ugh i don't know. goodtimes
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[15 May 2006|09:33pm] |
i really wish that i actually wrote in this thing
that way i could look back at all the stupid shit that happens in life..especially all the stuff that has happened over the last month or so..
because let's be honest
it changed my life
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[20 Jan 2006|03:30pm] |
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[25 Oct 2005|04:38pm] |
um so yeah. guess what. band is over. thankkkk god. our season ended with a score of 93.8 so. pretty much we are god. i like actually being in a guard that is good for once that offers a challenge and teaches technique. i really wanted to quit so much during the season since it was so hard.. but i'm happy i stayed.. i mean.. if i was still at sayreville..then i still probably would barely be able to do a quad on rifle.. and i mean.. now i can do i 6 ... i don't think anyone there can do that..so they can eat me..well actually only two of them can eat me, becuase i like everyone else. annnnnyway.
i'm going back to new jersey in 7 daysssss.... !!! i can't wait.. it's going to be fun seeing everyone again.. and it will be even more fun pissing people off who hate me on their birthdays... ohhhhh well.
i'm done i guess
peace.
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[18 Sep 2005|05:39pm] |
bleh.
hearing/reading about sayreville marching band stories upsets me.
i miss it so much. as well as some of the people.
fdufhduoghjhdfgudjf j
stupid stupid north carolina.
if/when marshy reads this...or someone else in band...tell me if you have a home football game november 4th
kbye.
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[05 Sep 2005|10:49pm] |
i know i never update.whatever. but here is something for you.. it's short read it .
number 32 is <3.. just kidding but i was like...helllls yeah.
1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.
( my answers )
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[12 Aug 2005|08:04pm] |
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♥ SHANNON MARSHALL ♥
... just thought you should know .
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[27 Jun 2005|09:33pm] |
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one month to go
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umm so yesterday was pretty damn awesome if i may say so myself...
well it was pretty gay until about 7:30 when steve called me to go hang out with him and chris at his house. so i get there and this chick alice was there too and we just watched chris and steve fuck around on drums for a little bit..then we went upstairs and just chilled in steve's room and talked about people and what not...then chris took a shower and had to wear steve's shorts and he looked ridiculous. then alice when home around 9:30. then we went to steve's grandma's to go smoke or whatever and fucking chris lit the filter and almost puked. bleeehhhhh then his grandma's light went on and we heard a car so we ran to another street.. but my shoe fell off so i couldn't find them for like 2 seconds...then we came home and chris showed me his ex-girlfriends on myspace. cool. we also just listened to amber pacific for a while and then chris wanted to pierce his nose or his lip but that would have hurt like fuck so he stopped. then we played truth or dare for a while. yeeeeaaaahhhhhhhhh. then i left around 12:15 ish came home and couldn't get to sleep becuase i'm a fucking fuck face end of story
.ilikehim.
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[22 May 2005|02:00pm] |
k so... here's the deal...so people are full of shit and think they can do noooo wrong.. so whatever who needs that crap, right? too bad i wasted way too much time with them. i like my actual friends though.. they are some nice people let me tell you..you know.. the ones that care how you feel. like my bffffffffleaf marshy. she is like one of the only people i will miss about this town.. i mean i really want to move to get away from this bullshit. it's so dumb people here are major pothead dirtbags who give up on life. it's gay stop moping and do something . i wish i could bring shannon marshall with me though..we feel the exact way about almost everything. and they same people piss us off.. liz too.. i know i don't talk to her as much.. but she is one cool chick and yeah. oh and fuck fuck I LOVE KORTNEEEEEEEE god she's amazing. we haven't even been friends that long but i can tell her things that i haven't told ANYONE.. somehow i know i can actually trust her and she won't go telling everyone..and i'm sick of how people talk about their friends behind their back.. if you don;t like them..then don't talk to them and stop acting like you are their god damn best friend. fucking two faced bitches. whatever this was such a rant/happy/pissed off/relieved entry
um also..juliana is god. she was soooo hot at my party. she made me smile. she;s so fun.
thanks to everyone who came to mhy party and actually talked to me . love ya
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hey..well ok so i know i haven't updated in forever .. but i don't care.. i've had a few things to deal with.. a lot of stuff has happened i guess... i'm definitly moving to norht carolina.. so that makes me cry on a regular basis.. we bought the house.. it's ok i guess.. it's just going to be a bitch making friends... i'm going down in like a week to the band open house.. i need to try out for their gaurd becuase they are uber amazing and only get first place.. so maybe i'll meet some people there.. hopefully they have a gay guy in their guard...
speaking of guard... we came in first place on saturday.. i was soooo happy.. what a good note to leave on ... i mwean it was the first medal sayreville ever got and thank god it was the gold.. but i'm so upset that it's over.. i actually made friends this year and i'm going to miss seeing them sooooo much.. i know that they will never see this.. but i just want to list them... DARREN!!! :( ... kasey, greg, frankie, andrew, tommy, shane, and brian.... and alough i never talked to evan in person..man am i going to miss seeing that... ugghhh got i hate this.. i wish i could do a drum core sooo bad ... i want to do sunrisers..and my mom would let me do it .. but i can't becuase it ends in september and school starts in august...god i hate this so much...
i am excited about one thing though... anthony is going to come over and help me spin..which is good becuase he is absolutly amazing and he'll get me ready for try-outs...
bleh..so i'm probably moving july 28 or 29... so i can be down there for band camp..i really hope i'll be okay.. i really hope i don't lose all my friends from up here.. but i know it will probably happen..god i just don't want to lose everything.. but i'm starting to cry now .. so i'm just going to go.. bye
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BOOOOO i'm extremely depressed..why did head automatica decide to not go on the take action tour.. please let me know..they are the only people that i wanted to see.. well i guess hawthorne heights are ok and anberlin.. but jesus christ i wanted to see head automatica sooo bad. way for me to waste money. ;(. ok. cool i'm updating for once.. maybe i'll just add some cool pics later that you can comment on. |
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i really don't know what to do right now ..i'm crying pretty hard...and i don't know how to react when the person i love the most makes me feel like i want to kill myself. you'd think your family would have your back..but not in my case..i would never think to talk to someone they way they talk to me ..i'm really considering not coming home from school tommorow..becuase frankly.. i don't think anyone would notice.f gfuidgafhutudha i just didn't think my family could do this to me..they've completly killed whatever self confidence i could have had. i don't think anyone should have to go to their home, the place where they should be safe, and be treated like this...i wish they only knew half of the things they were really doing to me ...i just don't know anymore..i mean no wonder i have such horrible people skills and such a hard time making friends and trusting people.. it's because i honestly believe i am the horrible gross person i've been told that i am...and i don't know what to do .i guarentee that if i move..and things continue to be like this.. i won't live to 16. bleh.. i need to go
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ok so i haven't updating in a while.. but i am now so here it goes...
friday--school was school as usual..boring crap.. i got invited to a mini bash and grimmster's house and to go out with lefty and her crew..i went to grimmster's. mallorie was there too. we watchd napolean dynamite for a while.. it had a few funny lines ehre and there.. but it was boring ..so we turned it off..then katie told her mom that i called her a whore ..which i didn't...so she called me a hoodlum. :O
not cool..then we took some radom pics..very random..trying to find out what body parts look like other body parts..we played a stupid game that mallorie cheated at... bastard...then we attempted to watch finding nemo.. but just cried for a while..what a sad movie. then we listened to some hanson... and made really cool voicemail settings.."MARCUS...YOU GOT AIDS". don't for get the illegal drugs, lots of alcohol and male dancers. it was a fun night..we should do it again soon.. my place.
saturday-- guard from 10 -- 3...oh man was there alot of drama...i think we need to have a group meeting like we did in field. besides that..the show is almost finished and i really just want to go to a competition already
after guard i went to shannon's ..setteragic =D..fun..then ddr for a little while..went to the park.. i almost fell 3 thousand times...then we went out to eat with my mom and dad...gyiefsdhufusah i hate them..they are crazy. then we came home..drr-ed it up..for a while..we suck..then we went to the basement..then i came upstairs and puked..fun. but shannon took care of me and told me what to do..we watched t.v. for a while..then fell asleep...she left this morning like 10:30... it doesn't sound that fun.. but it was .. i just forget alot of stuff
now. my family is downstairs. watching football. i despise football. i have english homework that i need to do.. but i won't probablly.. peace
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dshuiegfusdafusdfhasufsafsdfafhsduchsdufs. i hate myself. i wish i was able to make friends.. somehow..i'm just a shitface.. so i can't. i hate life.. almost all of my friends have boyfriends/girlfriends and it's pissing me off... i mean.. i'm not mad at them for having bf's/gf's ... it's just that seeing people make out in the hallway makes me sick. i just wish i could meet people so that i could maybe like someone.... but no. i suck. huge elephant dick. deep throat. sdhuafhufhusdhfuas bye
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ok so here's the deal...school was geigh.. exams were stupid it was pretty easy..then i came home and i was about to go to sleep when i recieved and telephone call from my friend Shannon. she came over to play....DDR that is. woot. we played for a while then we went online and listened to some rockin tunes. then we played ddr some more.. oh man dancin. k. sure. anyway..then we went to le eb mall...we walked around for a while but it was uncool because we were at a loss for money...but there wasa lot of diversity there.. mall ghettos..mall metals...punk rockers..and emo girl.yes. then we went to barnes and nobles and i got a grande vanilla bean frap. shannon recieved some hot chocolate. fun stuff. thhhhhennnnnn we were going to ruby's and shannon spotted eman-uel and allison. so we dined tother..I had 13 dollars for both of us...not to much ..damn ,.. but since our friends were wealthy..they helped with the bill...we heard a story a ball touching...gross. and we had cheese fries.. minus the cheese for shannon. k/geigh. then the fucking bill was $60.31 ...oh. k so then we went WAIIIIIIT WAIIIIIT I HAVE AN ANNOUNCEMENT THAT JUST POPPED IN MY HEAD..WE FOUND PAT MERRILL AND TALKED TO HIM FOR A WHILE..YAYA AND PICKED UP PAPERS TO WORK THERE.. SOON ME AND PAT WILL SAY OUR VOWS...MARK IT ON YOUR CALENDER....ok sooooooo where was i .. we walked into spencers...and yeah..2 kids were there that i don't talk to... but whatev. then we said goodbye to our DEAR friends..allison and eman and went back to talk to pat merrill...cool...then my mommmy came and picked us up and now we are here listening to cool song. ok bye we are going now.
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..ok well i'm going to rant for a few seconds...then make a real update..well you see some whores piss me off... how do you meet someone for maybe 2 minutes...if even that much..and then say that you like them... i'm really not sure how that works..and then then wonder why they end up depressed..maybe if they actually knew the person.. things wouldn't work out that way..sometimes the whole " hey what's your name, let's have sex" deal doesn't work...anyway.. update time.
i'm only going to say what happened yesterday.. i had a shitty guard practice...we have to fall in this stupid stupid dance and i hurt my lef majorly.. i'm going to the doctor tommorow to get it checked out becuase i can't bend it and i have this squishy bump on my foot..and i don't really think that's healthy... then i just came home and cried for like 2 hours straight.. just cried ..for no real reason at all..then i went to sleep..then shannon asked me if i wanted to go over her house ..and i did.. but first i went out to eat with my family becuase my brother got into the college that he wanted ..so..ok for him..then my dad wanted to go to barnes and noble which is always cool because i got to get my grande vanilla bean frappachino. yum. then i called shannon and procedded to her house..at first we jsut played ddr for a while..then meghan came home and took us to pank at like 11...we all got waffle fries..and i didn't have alot of money to pay for it ..so i gave meghan $2.77..in change in a little mini stocking...and she put lydia's (out waitress) name on it..and that was her tip..there was also quite a bit of nose candy there..that's always fun..and i got shot with a sour cream gun..tragic that i couldn't dodge it ...then we were driving to dunkin donuts listening to sweet home alabama and playing the drums on meghan's car....YOU!. haha..then we got to D.D. and met up with dan,kenny,strauss, diana,paul, and jenny i think..dan called some radio station and told them to play my chemical romance for the goat people...cooooolwe were only there for a short time then went back to shannon's house..guy called her..and i put it on speaker phone so kenny, paul, meghan and i could hear what was going out... quite funny..sorry babe..then strauss kenny jenny and i played poker.. kenny cheated but i won anyway..then some major ddr went on...they all left around 1 ish i think..but before strauss left..shanon's dad came downstairs telling him that he had good feet and that he should take his sweatshirt and hat off becuase he was getting overheated....pshahahaha....then shannon myself and meghan watched american history x...and shannon wanted me to kiss her toe for a while...we had a long conversation about it ..then sleep time..and i left like 11:30 this morning..it was the shit..but then again.. it always is.. peace
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